thoughts on parenthood

Well, I'm officially back to work. The past 3 months flew by just as quickly as everyone said they would. I miss Emma like crazy during the days, but I know being a working mom was the right choice for me. Here are a few other things I know... or don't know... what time is it? Who am I? Did I brush my teeth today?

  1. I really have no idea how single moms do it. Also, parents of twins. If there's a heaven, there's a special place in it for you folks.
  2. It's amazing how such a tiny little smile can turn my whole day around.
  3. It's laughable how clueless I was in those first weeks... I know I'm probably still clueless, just slightly less so.
  4. There are few things that can dumb a person down as quickly as daytime tv.
  5. Cloth diapering is easier than I thought it would be, but the spraying the poop into the toilet part is rather unpleasant.
  6. Why doesn't anyone ever talk about how challenging breastfeeding can be?
  7. I'm so grateful for Yoga Shala and the amazing women I went through prenatal and then mama and babies yoga class with. Other moms keep me sane.
  8. Correction - other moms and wine keep me sane.
  9. My convictions about the "right" and "wrong" way to parent were much stronger before I actually became a parent myself. Now I say if it's working for you and it's not hurting anyone, go for it.
  10. There's no better smell on the planet than the top of Emma's head. The neck cheese smell, however, I could do without.
  11. I'm not cut out to be a stay at home mom. It took me a while to make my peace with the realization that - for me - being a good mom means being a working mom.
  12. My friend Kellie's only piece of parenting advice to me was, "Just love them a lot. And make sure they know it." I think about that a hundred times a day, because a hundred times a day I'm pretty certain I'm doing something that will end up making my daughter less smart/independent/confident/happy/etc./etc./etc. You have no idea how much I hope she's right, because the love part is probably the only part I'm really good at.
  13. I never thought I'd laugh so much about getting yacked on.
  14. Every once in a blue moon... when the stars are aligned, country is still country, and Friday Night Lights never got cancelled... both Emma and Rocco will be asleep at the same time. And we'll sit in our living room and look at our perfect family and wonder how we ever got so damn lucky.